The Flu ain’t no joke people

I have spent the last 48 hours sicker than I have been in a very long time. The Gastrointestinal Flu ain’t no joke people. The majority of that time I have been lying on the sofa staring at this wall wondering how my daughter managed to handle this same illness and so many others during her life here with such strength and grace. I mean as long as you held her she was happy while her body fought hard to be well. It amazes me. 

I’ve thought about her a lot these past few weeks as the book is being launched. People keep asking why “Be Brave in the Scared” is the title? 

It’s simple. Because Courtney was brave everyday of her life and even though it took awhile, her Mom and Dad finally got with the program. She showed us how to love through the scary parts and believe that everything was gonna be OK. Her smile was the best “I love You” a mom could ever need. 

And it always was. I didn’t say it was ever easy, but it always worked out as God needed it too. 

My Sweet Courtney – I miss you so much, my heart aches and my arms feel so empty. BUT you and I both knew these days would come, so today I will be brave for you. I will offer up the fever and discomfort and pain for another Mama who needs to be brave in the scared today. I love you now and always my brave girl.

“I have found the paradox: that if you love until it hurts, there can be no more hurt, only more love.” St. Teresa of Calcutta